Grab a cup of coffee or anything else that helps you settle in because this page is the longest I plan to write ever, other than the legal jargon around your privacy while visiting this website. In case you are interested, you can read all about them here.
Let me start by admitting that I have been ignoring God’s desire for me to set up this blog site for over six years… no, I am not hearing voices, but I really wish I was. Nor did I witness any burning bushes, wouldn’t that be fun. I did keep having that nagging feeling however you get when there was something you were suppose to do but forgot to do it, or worse, have been ignoring to get it done.
The first time I felt God was prodding me to create this website was about twenty-five years ago. I had just been laid off from a job and had no real potential or skill set for a new one. Through several turns of events, I ended up being self employed as a technical writer, which was strange since every term paper I wrote in English class always scored an A for originality and a C- for mechanics (aka grammar). I started my new career without knowing anything about technical writing, including the important part, how to find real work. Yet it turned out that while most tech writers average about 10 months of actual work each year, I was busy all year long for over six years. With no effort on my part, each time I came to the end of a contract, a new one popped up. After the third or fourth time this occurred, I realized God was in charge of that part of the business and I just needed to concentrate on writing.
While the story of that phase of my life is a future post, let me simply warn you to be careful when you ask God for something; about ten months before I was fired, I was simply praying for God to teach me to have faith in Him and Him alone. I was hoping for a flash of lighting to illuminate me and give me instant faith, instead it destroyed everything around me and lead me on a journey to learn to have faith. In hindsight I was a modern day Job, minus the boils.
About the time I started work as a tech writer, the internet really kicked off and people started online journals, which today have become their own industry. As a writer, I felt nudged to join in, I even had an empty website just sitting there waiting to be used. But nothing happened in part because I had no idea what I would write about—it certainly wasn’t going to be about what I had for dinner that night.
Once I realized people actually earned a living from technical writing, I went about to set up a proper business to pay myself and of course my share to Uncle Sam. To communicate with people, I needed an email address, which is the reason I had an empty website sitting around. This was the beginning of eWritten Word. The name was designed not only to promote myself as a technical writer but also reflect Jesus Christ as the actual business owner. While I had planned to create a website to advertise, I was too busy working to spend the time to build it. After a few contracts, I realized none was needed and the URL has sat empty ever since.
This period was also the beginning of my own personal journey with God. I was experiencing the depth of His love for me and found, much to my surprise, that I love Him as well. Over the years I made it a goal to spend some part of the day with Him and have gotten to the point where the first hour of my day is actually set aside to spend time talking with Him. Yet while I talked, I never really hear His part of the conversation. As I inquired about ‘why’, I realized the fault was mine, I was making every effort to avoid recognizing His voice because I was scared of having to respond.
Fast forward to the present. I have been laid off once more. Again, I have no idea what I am going to do, but I seem to have plenty of time to get some things done that have been nagging me for some time. even to start obeying and stepping out once more in faith that He will provide. Have you ever noticed that God has a way of getting your attention when you ignore Him? I have to give Him credit, He waited twenty some years for me to get the blog going before He decided I needed a push.
I should finish this and allow you to finish your coffee.
I am not a preacher nor will I preach, I am not in sermon business. This site is nothing more than a reflection of my life since I surrendered it to God; what I’ve learned and unlearned, as well as the things I hope to learn in the years ahead. My intention is to write a conversation about my faith and the questions I have had along the way that is both open and honest. Please understand that if I am honest in my writing, my beliefs will seem to change over time. I am not still searching for faith, but rather have discovered that while God’s truth remains constant, my interpretation often changes as I ask questions. Nor is God worried about me asking those questioning, He can handle anything I can throw at Him. If you doubt that, time for you to open up the Book of Job. More importantly, I believe he really wants us to ask these questions so that He can help us better understand ourselves and the world around us. To help you better understand where I am coming from, a brief list of what I believe is listed on My Core Beliefs page.
Where this blog goes next, only God truly knows. I hope you will join me on this journey.
Then I said, “Here I am, I have come—it is written about me in the scroll. I desire to do your will, my God; your law is within my heart.”
— Psalm 40:7-8 NIV